This attachment parenting rubbish

Is just that, rubbish.

3yrs and 2 children later, I have 2 clingy children who cant go 5minutes without mummy milk, who will not leave me alone for 5 minutes, I cant even remember the last time I went to the loo by myself!

Neither are sleeping much, both are awake pretty much all night and Im really really sick of it. I dont understand how something that is a basic fucking human need can be so hard?!?!

The eldest just ignores me, does what he wants and generally wrecks the house. I find myself following him everywhere taking xyz off him, asking him not to do xyz and please don't punch his sister.

Where are these secure children I was promised? Who'd eat their dinner, be responsible and respectful and also wouldnt be clingy?? Im feeling pretty fucking short changed here!

No sleep...forgot how many years since Iv had any

Urgh, whiney post and yes I know that night waking/early mornings are part of children.

I am shattered, mentally and physically. DS was sleeping through for a few weeks earlier this year, but that stopped a few months ago, DD was too and again thats stopped recently (although they didnt sleep through at the same time, now that would be bliss!). I seem to be averaging 5hrs broken sleep a night and have done since I got pregnant with DS (so 4years next month)

I am at breaking point, I NEED sleep, and the odd lie in isnt cutting it. I am feeling very very resentful and angry that they wont sleep and let me sleep.
DS is refusing to eat food in the evening, so no dinner, no snacks, no cereal etc. Iv tried no snacks in the afternoon and he just gets angry and upset with me as hes hungry :(

On a usual day, he eats breakfast,luch and snacks, the last thing he eats is at about 4pm is (and no, he wont eat dinner then, Iv tried) so hes awake all night from 2am saying hes hungry. I lost my temper this morning and had a big big tantrum, swore and shouted and wasnt very nice to anyone. Im not proud of it but it was a long time coming, Iv just had enough of him at the moment and need some more sleep, some nore support and some more TLC!

Nursing to sleep

For the very first time in a long long time, Iv actually enjoyed nursing Halen to sleep.

Oh my little boy Im so sorry Im mentally fucked a lot of the time and cant always give you what you need.

You mean the world to me when Im capable of feeling it.