I have come to end of my tether with the lack of sleep. I'm averaging 3/4hrs broken sleep a night, no matter what time I go to sleep, these 2 just tag team me all night, for no reason I can determine and I have just HAD IT!
I need sleep, it's all I think about. Maybe if I got more, I could take them out to places that would tire them more, so maybe they'd sleep more?
I'm still feeling very lonely, physically lonely. I wish I had real friends, not just mummy ones from groups etc, but real friends, who I could cry/laugh/share with, over cake ;)
I took my tired, stressed and emotionally empty state out on Halen tonight and I feel CRAP for it. It's not his fault Im on my 3rd solo bedtime whilst OH goes to band practise, nor that Im feeling overwhelmed and need some TLC and sleep desperately.
Hopefully I'll feel refuels after a bit of a break tomorrow, my inlays are taking both kiddos out to soft play whilst me and OH go back to look at a car we both like for my first car :)
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