Or so it feels...
This has been a bad week, a very bad week. I'm feeling very lonely and ignored by everyone.
I'm so sick of OH doing late nights at work, and staying in bed all morning, I'm so sick of being alone with grumpy tired children, I'm sick of not having enough money and I'm sick of not having any god damn friends!
I'm trying really hard to be positive at the moment, but it's so hard when I feel so negative about myself.
I've been trying to set up a home education group my end of town, and it's not going very well. There's been a lot of interest but in reality, hardly anyone came. The ones that did come then slagged it off afterwards and that's made me feel shitty!
I'm trying to completely change how I'm living my life. I'm stuck in this negative, bored and lonely life and I want out!
I'm trying to:
Stop eating junk food,
Get rid of useless "friends" who in fact just seem to mock me, or ignore me
Get out the house more
Try to be more patient with my kids
Get to bed earlier
Stop letting the TV babysit my children
Be more sensible with money
And that's it for now...
Getting rid of the dead wood friends is very theraputic. I've done it and it's bloody great!
ReplyDeleteDon't be too hard on yourself though. Take one thing at a time. Small targets are more achievable and achievements will make you feel good about yourself, so don't set the bar too high. Even the longest journeys start with the first step. Yada yada yada..... <3
I think I could have written this post.
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